Possessed Like A Martyr Gettin High Off The Flames

Fact:

2010-02-23T16:42:00.001-08:00

You never know what you have till its really gone....

Let the countdown begin!

2009-05-21T10:07:00.000-07:00

*NEW**

AUGUST 18 2009!

LET THE WAITING COMMENCE.....

S.O.T.D #8

2009-05-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

Child Abuse....All in the name of The Prince of Peace...

2009-05-21T08:42:00.000-07:00

DUBLIN — A fiercely debated, long-delayed investigation into Ireland’s Roman Catholic-run institutions says priests and nuns terrorized thousands of boys and girls in workhouse-style schools for decades _ and government inspectors failed to stop the chronic beatings, rapes and humiliation.

Nine years in the making, Wednesday’s 2,600-page report sides almost completely with the horrific reports of abuse from former students sent to more than 250 church-run, mostly residential institutions. But victims’ leaders said it didn’t go far enough _ particularly because none of their abusers were identified by name.

The report concluded that church officials always shielded their orders’ pedophiles from arrest to protect their own reputations and, according to documents uncovered in the Vatican, knew that many pedophiles were serial attackers.

The investigators said overwhelming, consistent testimony from still-traumatized men and women, now in their 50s to 80s, had demonstrated beyond a doubt that the entire system treated children more like prison inmates and slaves than people with legal rights and human potential.

“A climate of fear, created by pervasive, excessive and arbitrary punishment, permeated most of the institutions and all those run for boys. Children lived with the daily terror of not knowing where the next beating was coming from,” the final report of Ireland’s Commission to Inquire Into Child Abuse concluded.

The leader of Ireland’s 4 million Catholics, Cardinal Sean Brady, and religious orders at the center of the scandal offered immediate apologies.

“I am profoundly sorry and deeply ashamed that children suffered in such awful ways in these institutions. Children deserved better and especially from those caring for them in the name of Jesus Christ,” Brady said.

The Sisters of Mercy, which ran several refuges for girls where the report documented chronic brutality, said in a statement its nuns “accept that many who spent their childhoods in our orphanages or industrial schools were hurt and damaged while in our care.”

http://www.childabusecommission.ie/

Humanity Sux at life and needs to get raped in the face.......

2009-05-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

Bet this little girl looks familiar...remember she was getting auctioned off by daddy dearest? This poor kid and her brother just cant get a break.....

MUMBAI, India — The shanty home of another “Slumdog Millionaire” child star was torn down by Mumbai authorities Wednesday as they demolished part of a city slum where she lived.

Munni Qureshi _ the stepmother of 9-year-old Rubina Ali, who portrayed a young Latika, the Oscar-winning film’s heroine _ said her husband was beaten by police who were supervising the demolition. She said he was taken to a hospital with minor injuries.

Last week, bulldozers demolished the home of Azharuddin Mohammed Ismail, another of the film’s child stars, in a similar cleanup drive. Though “Slumdog Millionaire” won eight Oscars and brought in more than $326 million, it has done little so far to improve the lives of Rubina and Azhar.

“How can the police barge in any time without giving us notice?” Qureshi asked, as she wept holding her forehead. Neighbors poured water over her to keep her cool as she sat in the scorching summer sun with Rubina.

Dozens of police with bamboo batons walked around the alley where Rubina’s house is located and supervised demolition crews of young men wielding sledgehammers and metal rods who tore down the shanty homes.

Slums destroyed because they are illegal or in the way of city development plans often resurface. Government promises of housing are not often met and when slum-dwellers are given homes, it is often in poor-quality buildings on the outskirts of cities, far from their jobs.

Temporary homes have already sprung up in the area where Azhar’s home had been. His family tied blankets and sheets of blue and yellow tarpaulin to a wooden frame to create a shelter.

Rubina and Azhar were discovered on the Mumbai streets by the filmmakers. The film’s adult stars, Dev Patel and Freida Pinto, have since shot to international fame. But the lives of the two impoverished child stars _ who live in the slum called Garib Nagar, or the “city of the poor” _ haven’t changed much.

“I’m feeling bad,” Rubina told The Associated Press. “My house had been demolished. I’m thinking about where to sleep.”

“Slumdog” filmmakers say they’ve done their best to help the young stars. They set up a trust to ensure the children get proper homes, a decent education and a nest egg when they finish high school. They have also donated $747,500 to a charity to help slum kids in Mumbai.

Producer Christian Colson has described the trust as substantial, but won’t tell anyone how much it contains _ not even the children’s parents _ for fear of making the youngsters vulnerable to exploitation.

S.O.T.D #8 (i think)

2009-05-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

Perfect fit for my life....

Something I can never have
By: Nine Inch Nails

I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore. [Chorus:]

You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go way.
You make this all go way.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me

[Chorus]

In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

[Chorus]

I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have

I Crave Deliverance.....

2009-05-20T08:23:00.000-07:00

What can I say really?
Truth is I don't even know.
I am so done with everything around me and everyone around me.
I am drifting away from them all so fast that i cant hang on to them.
so this is my goodbye.
This is my way of saying you win world.
Ill go back to what i was before and ill learn to love it because it is whats written in my stars.
I will be the whore he made me again.
I will be his object.
That is my life and there is no one who can stop it.
Not even me.
Hell I guess anything is better than being alone.
I hate their sex. I hate them so much, but i cannot escape them. Ever.
Disgusting as they are.
I, to them am nothing more than a sexual encounter that they can talk about with their drone like friends while they attempt to grow their penis with each "kiss and tell story" they share.
Pigs. worthless fucking pigs.
But then again I cant have what I want....so ill take what wants me.

Ill make sure they never know how broken i am right now.
Especially her.

And the Count Down Begins.....

2009-05-19T10:37:00.000-07:00

New OT3P

AUGUST 2009!

Heehee Ancient Grillz

2009-05-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

FLAVOR FLAV U R NOT AN ORIGINAL!LOL

May 18, 2009—The glittering “grills” of some hip-hop stars aren’t exactly unprecedented. Sophisticated dentistry allowed Native Americans to add bling to their teeth as far back as 2,500 years ago, a new study says.

Ancient peoples of southern North America went to “dentists”—among the earliest known—to beautify their chompers with notches, grooves, and semiprecious gems, according to a recent analysis of thousands of teeth examined from collections in Mexico’s National Institute of Anthropology and History (such as the skull above, found in Chiapas, Mexico).

Scientists don’t know the origin of most of the teeth in the collections, which belonged to people living throughout the region, called Mesoamerica, before the Spanish conquests of the 1500s.

But it’s clear that people—mostly men—from nearly all walks of life opted for the look, noted José Concepción Jiménez, an anthropologist at the institute, which recently announced the findings.

“They were not marks of social class” but instead meant for pure decoration, he commented in an e-mail interview conducted in Spanish.

In fact, the royals of the day—such as the Red Queen, a Maya mummy found in a temple at Palenque in what is now Mexico—don’t have teeth decorations, Jiménez said.

Other evidence of early Mesoamerican dentistry—including a person who had received a ceremonial denture—has also been found.

Knowledgeable Dentists

The early dentists used a drill-like device with a hard stone such as obsidian, which is capable of puncturing bone.

“It’s possible some type of [herb based] anesthetic was applied prior to drilling to blunt any pain,” Jiménez said.

The ornamental stones—including jade—were attached with an adhesive made out of natural resins, such as plant sap, which was mixed with other chemicals and crushed bones, Jiménez said.

The dentists likely had a sophisticated knowledge of tooth anatomy, Jiménez added. For example, they knew how to drill into teeth without hitting the pulp inside, he said.

“They didn’t want to generate an infection or provoke the loss of a tooth or break a tooth.”

—John Roach

A re-post

2009-05-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

I liked these alot so i decided to repost them...

enjoy.......

(AND I BURN)

There is a weight within me
a kiss
heavier than then sun.
a slow invasion
of strange beauty
injected in the flesh
an odd
nourishment
for my soul
thickening
far away atoms
Like fat
happy Buddhas
an intimate
new language
softer than
the breath
that slips
from your lips
in veritas.
the depth of you
fills me.......
and i burn...
and i burn...

(POET SAY)

I am a mean, ill tempered
pseudo-perfecto passionate artistic poet.
an emancipator.
crucified mouthpiece
self loving-loathing martyr
obsessed with creative evolution.

its simple.
I want profound moments.
I want meaning and myth-making.

I want the machine to work.

2009-05-19T08:56:00.000-07:00

Well I guess its just a good day to sit and type out random meaningless shit on the computer.
Right now I am sitting across from this kid who is blaring some confederate shit music and am sitting next to a small framed prost-a-tot who is so self absorbed that she doesn't even notice that her granny panties are hanging out from her hoochie shorts lol.
Its so funny to watch these people around me.
I guess its a hobby so to speak.
Hmm this kid across from me is sickeningly prejudice....its really quite disgusting how he finds pleasure in listening to a song that talks about hanging a "nigger"from a tree.
Pathetic.
I really want to go home right now. I want to sleep. Its been a long two weeks and the days just keep getting longer, without sign of letting up.
I cant remember the last time I was this exhausted.
I let Straton read my term paper early today. it was about Jake.
He cried and hugged me.
why do people do that?
Why is it that when someone finds out that you've had a hard life or you've been through something a bit traumatic, they feel they have to apologize for it, even though it was out of their control?
I hate sympathy.
Its like having the world shove Sand in Ur eye, and then someone comes along and tries to rub it out for you and ends up making it worse.
Now don't get me wrong I like Straton and all, its just....so human to do what he did.
I kinda wish I hadn't given him the paper BC now he looks at me differently. Like Ive just given him the manual to why i am me.Its very annoying and juvenile i think.

I am excited about my grad party though.

Kinda random thoughts to my day..but whatever, its my blog and if i want to randomly rant, i will.

S.O.T.D #7

2009-05-19T08:34:00.000-07:00

Heehee

Love this song.
If U get a chance LISTEN to it!

Ratamahata
By:Sepultura

(Xavantes tribe's singings)
(Max:) AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...
(Carlinhos Brown:)Biboca garagem favela, (Max:) BIBOCA GARAGEM FAVELA!!!
Fubunga maloca bocada, (Max:) FUBUNGA MALOCA BOCADA!!!
Maloca bocada fubunga, (Max:) MALOCA BOCADA FUBUNGA!!!
Favela garagem biboca, (Max:) FAVELA GARAGEM BIBOCA,PORRA!
(Max:) UM,DOIS,TRES,QUATTRO...
AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...AH...
Ze do Caixao,Zumbi,Lampiao...ze do Caixao,Zumbi,Lampiao...
Ze do Caixao,Zumbi,Lampiao...ZE DO CAIXAO,ZUMBI,LAMPIAO!!!
(Carlinhos:) Hello,uptown...hello,downtown...hello,midtown...hello,(? trenchtown?)
(???Max and Carlinhos singing and screaming Ratamahatta???)
(Max's screaming)
(Carl.:)Hello,uptown...hello,midtown...hello,downtown...hello,(?trenchtown?)
(Max and Carl. screaming)

Hmmmm Drugs=good?

2009-05-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

April 1, 2009 — The active chemical in marijuana promotes the death of brain cancer cells by essentially helping them feed upon themselves, researchers in Spain report.

Guillermo Velasco and colleagues at Complutense University in Spain have found that the active ingredient in marijuana, THC, causes brain cancer cells to undergo a process called autophagy. Autophagy is the breakdown of a cell that occurs when the cell essentially self-digests.

The team discovered that cannabinoids such as THC had anticancer effects in mice with human brain cancer cells and people with brain tumors. When mice with the human brain cancer cells received the THC, the tumor growth shrank.

Two patients enrolled in a clinical trial received THC directly to the brain as an experimental treatment for recurrent glioblastoma multiforme, a highly aggressive brain tumor. Biopsies taken before and after treatment helped track their progress. After receiving the THC, there was evidence of increased autophagy activity.

The findings appear in the April 1 issue of the Journal of Clinical Investigation.

The patients did not have any toxic effects from the treatment. Previous studies of THC for the treatment of cancer have also found the therapy to be well tolerated, according to background information in journal article.

Study authors say their findings could lead to new strategies for preventing tumor growth.

ahhh music is the adrenaline for the mind...

2009-05-18T10:02:00.000-07:00

S.O.T.D #6

2009-05-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

Hmm today is gonna be......

Trip Like I Do
By: Filter

I've got the understanding of a 4-year-old
I've got the peace of mind of a killer's soul
I've got the rationale of a New York cop
I've got the patience of a chopping block, yeah

Trip like I do
(Oh my God... this is the best)
Trip like I do
(Oh my God... this is the best)

I've got the acumen of a seasoned pro
I've got the legacy of a billion souls
I've got the world down my back, but I don't seem to care
I've got the comprehension of a world unaware, yeah

Trip like I do
(Oh my God... this is the best)
Trip like I do
Trip like I do
(Oh my God... this is the best)
(Mmm, Mmm... I want you to trip like I do)

Can't you... Can't you trip like I do?
Can't you... Can't you trip like I do?

Laid out on my back, I can't sleep 'cause I'm slumming
Eyes in my teeth, I can't see 'cause I'm eating
Head full of noise, I can't think 'cause it's crushing
Back on my feet, like a freight train I'm coming

Can everybody feel like I do?
Can everybody feel like I do?
(Oh my God...)
Can't you... Can't you trip like I do?
Can't you... Can't you trip like I do?

(Oh my God...)

Can't you trip, can't you think, can't you feel like I do?
Can't you walk, can't you breathe, can't you trip like I do?
[X4 - In Round]

(Can everybody feel like I do?) [Harmonized with Round]
Can't you trip, can't you think, can't you feel like I do?
Can't you walk, can't you breathe, can't you trip like I do?
[X3 - In Round]

...can't you trip like me?

MmmHmmm

2009-05-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

Mmmmm

Katherine Moaning
I ♥ this grl!

CHECK OUT MY FAVORITE SHOW

THE L WORD

ON SHOWTIME!!!

Heehee irony @ its finest.....

2009-05-18T08:32:00.001-07:00

Water Boarding (Forced Drowning Torture)

2009-05-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

*WHAT IT IS*

(provided by wikipedia)
Waterboarding is a form of torture that consists of immobilizing the victim on his or her back with the head inclined downwards, and then pouring water over the face and into the breathing passages. By forced suffocation and inhalation of water, the subject experiences drowning and is caused to believe they are about to die. It is considered a form of torture by legal experts, politicians, war veterans,medical experts in the treatment of torture victims , intelligence officials, military judges,and human rights organizations.

*WHATS GOING ON*

Some of the first questions asked of Khalid Sheikh Mohammed upon his capture and during the time during which he was waterboarded were about possible connections between al Qaeda and Iraq, according to a review of several reports on U.S. intelligence operations.

The mastermind of the September 11 attacks was captured in Rawalpindi, Pakistan on March 1, 2003, and according to Office of Legal Counsel memos released last month, was waterboarded 183 times that same month.

The substance of the intelligence that was being sought from him has been an object of some speculation, with several defenders of the interrogation practice arguing that the goal was to prevent an impending attack on America.

But a line buried on page 353 of the July 2004 Select Committee on Intelligence report on pre-Iraq war intelligence strongly suggests that the interrogation was just as centered on a possible Iraq-al-Qaeda link as terrorist activity.

A recently de-classified Senate Armed Services Committee report quoted army psychologist Maj. Paul Burney as saying that a large part of his time on a Behavioral Science Consultation Team was “focused on trying to establish a link between Al Qaeda and Iraq.”

McClatchy newspapers, meanwhile, published an article last month citing a former intelligence official acknowledging that the Bush administration had pressured interrogators to use harsh techniques to produce evidence connecting the terrorist organization and Iraq’s regime.

S.O.T.D #5

2009-05-15T13:26:00.000-07:00

hmmm bad day= good song mode.

Winner is......

Heresy
By: NIN

He sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
He tries to tell me what I put inside of me
He's got the answers to ease my curiosity
He dreamed a god up and called it Christianity
Your god is dead and no one cares
If there is a hell I'll see you there
He flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
He made a virus that would kill off all the swine
His perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
Demands devotion atrocities done in his name
Your god is dead and no one cares
Drowning in his own hypocrisy
And if there is a hell I'll see you there
Burning with your god in humility
Will you die for this?

W.O.W

2009-05-15T13:22:00.000-07:00

I hate my life....

hanging self in bathroom sounds like a good time right about now....so many expectations, so many lies and troubles and....cant make it all go away....as soon as I find a moment of solice its taken from me like it was never there at all. Am going fuckin crazy at the moment.

Need a sedative just to think.

T.R.I.C lol its a dedication

2009-05-14T10:36:00.000-07:00

S.O.T.D #4

2009-05-14T10:27:00.000-07:00

Hmmm today I'm feeling a little techno Esq.

Winner is....
I sit on acid
By: The Lords of Acid

Darling, come here - fuck me up the ...
Sit on your face
I wanna sit on your face
(x2)
Sit on your face
I wanna sit on your face
(x2)
Oh, yeah, (moans/laughs)
Sit on your face
I wanna sit on your face
(x2)
Sit on your face
I wanna sit on your face
(x2)
(moans/laughs)
Sit on your face
I wanna sit on your face
(x2)
(moans/laughs)
Sit on your face
I wanna sit on your face
(x2)


Heeheee AWESOME lyrics lolololz
who says sodomy isn't fun?
(moans/laughs)

Imagine.

2009-05-14T10:07:00.000-07:00

NEW YORK — A new John Lennon exhibit is particularly emotional for his widow, Yoko Ono. Besides Lennon’s guitars, letters and other personal effects, it also includes a paper bag containing the bloody clothes from the night he was shot to death.

Ono received the items from the medical examiner in December 1980, when the former Beatle was gunned down in New York City at age 40.

“It was hard to include,” Ono said. “And I thought it might be criticized as well.”

But ultimately, Ono thought it was important to let people see the effects of gun violence.

The Lennon items are part of a new exhibit that will launch Tuesday at the Rock & Roll Hall of Fame Annex. “John Lennon: The New York Years” includes Lennon’s famous New York City T-shirt, his upright piano from his Dakota apartment, and a posthumous 1981 Grammy Award for the couple’s album “Double Fantasy.”

“I know it’s a kind of a sad and very poignant kind of paradox I think that he loved this place so much and this is where he was killed,” she said in an interview after a news conference for the exhibit.

There are also letters documenting Lennon’s long-fought battle against deportation in the early 1970s, both from the government and supporters. Glass cases also contain a dozen or so handwritten lyrics.

Ono says Lennon’s death still haunts her nearly 30 years later: “I still get affected by it.”

“If it (his death) was a slow a process we could have talked about it or something,” she added, holding back tears.

The exhibit will be on display throughout 2009.

God Bring me a FRIDAY!!!!

2009-05-14T10:03:00.000-07:00

.......anytime now.........

A moment for the melancholy

2009-05-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm

Another day and another let down....
truth is i dont care much.
Maybe its mean but i really just dont.
She said she was done.
So what?
I mean thats not to say I didnt love her or that dont wish it could have turned out a bit differently, but I cant bring myself to care all that much.
I am a cruel person, i Know!
But she didnt hurt me.
If anything I feel a little better.
I couldnt make a decision so she made it for me.
She made it easier.

Fact is I kinda think shes nuts.
i fought more with her in the three weeks I spent "getting to know her" than I ever have with anyone in my entire life.
Its so hard to describe what i am feeling right now.
She just couldnt let me heal...
I dont understand what was so hard about letting me have some time to get over a three year relationship.
Its not easy...

Melancholy today.

Rainy day.....

The Sad Mans Kama Sutra

2009-05-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

It warms my heart......

2009-05-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

O.o what a twit.

2009-05-13T10:21:00.000-07:00

NEW YORK — A Roman Catholic archbishop who resigned in 2002 over a sex and financial scandal involving a man describes his struggles with being gay in an upcoming memoir about his decades serving the church.

Archbishop Rembert Weakland, former head of the Milwaukee archdiocese, said in an interview Monday that he wrote about his sexual orientation because he wanted to be candid about “how this came to life in my own self, how I suppressed it, how it resurrected again.”

Called “A Pilgrim in a Pilgrim Church: Memoirs of a Catholic Archbishop,” the book is set to be released in June.

“I was very careful and concerned that the book not become a Jerry Springer, to satisfy people’s prurient curiosity or anything of this sort,” Weakland told The Associated Press. “At the same time, I tried to be as honest as I can.”

Weakland stepped down soon after Paul Marcoux, a former Marquette University theology student, revealed in May 2002 that he was paid $450,000 to settle a sexual assault claim he made against the archbishop more than two decades earlier. The money came from the archdiocese.

S.O.T.D #3

2009-05-13T10:10:00.000-07:00

And today is.........

100%
By. Angelspit

Dip my tail in blood ink
Write it down in red
Scribe the words "Happy meal"
Right across your head

Tired of getting walked on
Treated like a sheep
Don't blame me for all the years
That you were asleep

[Relax
God is in control
Watch the dot
Take your meds
Obey my demands
Trust my dog
Time for surgery
Relax
God is in control
Watch the dot
Take your meds
Obey my demands
Trust my dog
Shut your eyes you're dead]

Televised mass poison
Spitting at the screen
Keep the masses deluded
With fabricated dreams

Powdered God in a bag
From the Vatican
I want you to fuck off
As hard as you can

[Chorus]

Heaven has burst open
Now it's raining bones
The chaos will erode you
Breeding little clones

Born of a fallen rib
From the monkey's womb
Overcooked by cathode rays
Evolved to consume

100% [4x]

Eating from the butcher's slab
Becoming what they meet
Restrained and roasted while they gorge
Strapped into the seat

Bathing in your arrogance
Dining will ensue
God made me a cannibal
To fix problems like you

[Chorus]

100% [2x]

Last time was the last time...
This time, you're 100% [3x]

Last time was the last time...
This time, you're 100% fucked

And I Burn

2009-05-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

Poet Say

2009-05-13T06:50:00.000-07:00

Musix for ur ears

2009-05-12T09:09:00.000-07:00

Got another one for today ladies and gents

2009-05-12T08:52:00.000-07:00

Im a bit angry now so heres another for today.....

LISTEN HERE----->http://www.jango.com/stations/138559400/tunein?song_id=131525

FILTHEE
By:Otep

Lying naked
-- alone

on the bathroom floor

evacuating pain
fear ... no MORE

-- and I cant get his scent off of me

I.

she wants to be messiah
without the crucifixion

she wants to fuck delilah
without samsons intervention

she wants to be a deity
and rule us everyday

and punish the whores of your wishgods
and the martyrs that they slay

she wants to see galaxies
all the planets and the stars

she wants to be a fallen angel
without their swollen scars

[chorus]

she's unclean...
unclean....
fillthee

and I can't get his scent off of me

II.

she wants to free the kingdumb
and be worshipped by the earth

she wants to be the prophet
for 10 times whut shes worth

she wants to break free from eve
and leave them all behind

to be born again in the thrill of sin
& revive her dying mind

she wants to stand
& rape the king

slaughter the daughter
kill everything

burn the world
& let her soul be free

& ignite the nebulas
of eternity

[chorus]

[bridge]

- dont touch me there
- oooh I know your scared
- kill the need in me
- and I'll remain .... UNCLEAN!

AND I CAN'T GET HIS SCENT OFF OF ME!

NO!

AND I CAN'T GET HIS SCENT OFF OF ME!

WHY SHOULD I BE AFRAID?
IT'S NOT THE FIRST TIME I'VE TASTED PAIN!! (x2)

RUN! RUN!
AND I CAN'T GET HIS SCENT OFF OF ME!

S.O.T.D #2

2009-05-12T08:39:00.000-07:00

And todays winner is..........

LISTEN HERE--------->http://www.jango.com/stations/118319321/tunein?proxy_id=40618791&song_id=24967

Somebody told Me
By: The Killers

Breaking my back just to know your name
Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
I'm breaking my back just to know your name
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss
Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight

Well somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential

Ready? Let's roll onto something new
Taking its toll and I'm leaving without you
Ready? Let's roll onto something new
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss

Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight

Well somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
A rushin', a rushin' around

Pace yourself from me
I said maybe baby please
But I just don't know now
When all I wanna do is try

Somebody told me
You had a boyfriend
Who looked like a girlfriend
That I had in February of last year
It's not confidential
I've got potential
A rushin', a rushin' around

Editors Letter

2009-05-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

hmmmm letter to the editor?

(u know who u r)

Dear, Who ever the hell you are,

Fuck you.

Sincerely, Tebb

p.s Nothing personal.

S.O.T.D #1

2009-05-07T10:20:00.000-07:00

I'm starting a new thing were I post the lyrics of a song that is a reflection of my day
Enjoy.

(LINK TO LISTEN)
http://www.jango.com/stations/129636015/tunein?proxy_id=40618791&song_id=131508

WARHEAD
By: Otep

The king of lies
Is alive
Look around
Look inside
Infidel
It begins here, it ends now
The prince must pay
His head or the crown
Rob the poor, slaughter the weak
Distort the law, perfect deceit

Do I need a gas mask?
Should I get inoculated?
Will this war last?
Will we be incinerated?
False gods
Death squads
Blind

This is a catastrophe
Weapon systems activated
Puritans have invaded
This is a catastrophe
To protect against the threat
Order must be kept

Do I need a gas mask?
Should I get inoculated?
Will this war last?
Will we be incinerated?
False gods
Death squads
Blind

The elephants march to war
Concede
Conform
Concede
Conform
Deny the big lie
My tribe
Join me
An alliance of defiance, in the warhead
An alliance of defiance
All are welcome here
Give me your tired, give me your sick, give me your indulgence and decadence
He lied, they died, keep the peasants terrified
This is a catastrophe
You must lead if they get me
On my command
Break free

State of Mine

2009-05-07T08:08:00.000-07:00

I have reach a point today that I guess is what most refer to as the push over the edge.
It is time to move along. I am so done with this place and the ignorant fucking people around me.
Is it too much to ask for an intelligent conversation?
Too much to ask for some understanding?
Yes.
It is too much to ask from my so called "friends".
Fact is I kind of hate them all anyways so its really not that important.
I just need a change of scenery I guess.
A new group of people to associate with because quite frankly the ones that surround me now have been the constant reasons for my unbearable headaches and my sleepless nights.

I regret what I have done to him.
Never thought I would and most really wouldn't blame me for leaving as suddenly as I did...but i regret it.
I regret what I did to him when I tried to mold him to fit my twisted perception of the perfect man.
Fact is, he was perfect in the beginning.
I have created my own monsters.
I miss him, but I cant go back....
I will be the cause of my own misery for the rest of my life.

I live with a mother who changes faces day to day. Yesterday she was happy and the mother that I always wanted, today, a different story. Its getting harder and harder to be here each day and I really just want to get away from it all.
From them all.
I want to scream at them that they are all worthless excuses for human life and should really just go into a hermit like state. I want to climb a building and shout from the top that I am a whore and a failure and that my parents wish I were dead and how I do too. I want to leave them all behind.
Except one.
Yea, only one...how pathetic right...?
I only want to feel free and happy again...
Its been a while.
Maybe when I'm Finlay out of this place Ill be able to get to that state of jihad, that state of complete relaxation and peacefulness. Maybe Ill find college to be a place of smarter more understanding people that I crave to be around.
I am not meant to be here, I know this now...hell Ive known it for a LONG time now.
I am sick of everything they say. I'm sick of them revealing their personal lives to me in an attempt to make me see how "cool"they are when in truth they remind me of those 6Th graders you see standing outside of the mall or where-ever smoking a cigarette without inhaling in a sad way, just to make themselves look more mature or whatever, even though anyone who looks at them sees a huge lit up sign that reads "I am a tool" over their heads.
Why is everyone so fake...
hell I'm just like them in my own ways....
Its time to leave this place.
Time to feel again.

Fred Phelps......here we go again bitch.

2009-05-05T10:19:00.000-07:00

Quotes From Ur friendly neighborhood Dickhead aka Fred Phelps and his mindless automatons...

1) "Ellen DeGeneres is a lesbian slut"
2) "Homosexuality = Death"
3) "Fags Die, God Laughs"
4) "Matthew Shepard Rots in Hell,"
5) "AIDS: Kills Fags Dead"
6) "world-famous filthy Jew whore."
(That little bit was said about Elizabeth Taylor for founding the AIDs research society)

Res ipsa loquitur (for u morons thats latin for "speaks for itself")

2009-05-05T10:06:00.000-07:00

Twits.....

A Poem...or two.....

2009-05-04T10:33:00.001-07:00

In the land of dead dust
muted by the Gods of new
In holy denial
of you.
I found the best part of me
Picking clean the bones of Lilith
Eating the heart of Eve
Crying to the sky
Jehovah! Lies!

And here's another.........

Lost in the solice of her voice
Found in the electricity of her touch
Finding profound meaning
in coffee stained newspaper mornings
and long, computer word nights.
Dreaming of dancing

in the sweet nectar of Sheshat's eyes.

True true.....

2009-05-04T10:29:00.000-07:00

Fuck YOU FOXX!

2009-05-04T10:17:00.000-07:00

FOXX says Matthew Shepard murder a HOAX!
-----> LInk HERE---->http://www.dailykostv.com/w/001265/

For those of you who have been living under a rock for the past million years the story of Matt Shepard goes as such.....

Matthew Shepard, oldest son of Dennis Shepard and Judy Shepard, was born in Casper, Casper Wyoming on December 1, 1976. He attended Crest Hill Elementary School, Dean Morgan Junior High, and the first two years of high school at Natrona County High School. He was a member of St. Mark's Episcopal Church. Shepard spent his junior and senior years of high school at The American School In Switzerland. After graduating in 1995, he attended Catawba College and Casper College before he relocated to Denver. Shepard then became a first-year political science major at the University of Wyoming and was chosen as the student representative for the Wyoming Environmental Council.

He was described by his parents as "...an optimistic and accepting young man [who] had a special gift of relating to almost everyone. He was the type of person who was very approachable and always looked to new challenges. Matthew had a great passion for equality and always stood up for the acceptance of people's differences."

However, Shepard faced his own inner battle. During a high school trip to Morocco he was beaten and raped causing him to withdraw and experience bouts of depression and panic attacks, according to his mother Judy Shepard. A friend of Shepard feared his depression caused him to become involved in the local drug scene during his time in college.

Shortly after midnight on October 7, 1998, 21-year-old Shepard met McKinney and Henderson in a bar. McKinney and Henderson offered Shepard a ride in their car.pistol whipped, tortured, tied to a fence in a remote, rural area, and left to die. McKinney and Henderson also found out his address and intended to rob his home. Still tied to the fence, Shepard was discovered eighteen hours later by Aaron Kreifels, who at first thought that Shepard was a scarecrow. At the time of discovery, Shepard was still alive, but in a coma. Subsequently, Shepard was robbed,

Shepard suffered a fracture from the back of his head to the front of his right ear. He had severe brain stem damage, which affected his body's ability to regulate heart rate, body temperature and other vital signs. There were also about a dozen small lacerations around his head, face and neck. His injuries were deemed too severe for doctors to operate. Shepard never regained consciousness and remained on full life support. As he lay in intensive care, candlelight vigils were held by the people of Laramie.

He was pronounced dead at 12:53 A.M. on October 12, 1998 at Poudre Valley Hospital in Fort Collins. Police arrested McKinney and Henderson shortly thereafter, finding the bloody gun as well as the victim's shoes and wallet in their truck.

The two men had attempted to get their girlfriends to provide alibis.

The prosecutor in the case charged that McKinney and Henderson pretended to be gay in order to gain Shepard's trust to rob him. During the trial, Chastity Pasley and Kristen Price (the pair's then-girlfriends) testified under oath that Henderson and McKinney both plotted beforehand to rob a gay man. McKinney and Henderson then went to the Fireside Lounge and selected Shepard as their target. McKinney alleged that Shepard asked them for a ride home. After befriending him, they took him to a remote area of Laramie where they robbed him, beat him severely, and tied him to a fence with a rope from McKinney's truck while Shepard begged for his life. Media reports often contained the graphic account of the pistol whipping and his smashed skull. It was reported that Shepard was beaten so brutally that his face was covered in blood, except where it had been partially washed clean by his tears.Both girlfriends also testified that neither McKinney nor Henderson was under the influence of drugs at the time.

AND WE SAY THIS IS A HOAX!
A young homosexual male who had nothing but a bright future ahead of him is dead because of the homophobic ignorance of two hate mongering pigs and Foxx has the sheer audasity to call this a hoax?!

For the Fail AGAIN!

2009-05-04T10:06:00.000-07:00

Okay Ingrid Newkirk here we go again.....

<-------LYING WHORE!!!!!

Animal lovers worldwide now have access to more than a decade’s worth of proof that People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals (PETA) kills thousands of defenseless pets at its Norfolk, Virginia headquarters. Since 1998, PETA has opted to “put down” 21,339 adoptable dogs, cats, puppies, and kittens instead of finding homes for them.

PETA’s “Animal Record” report for 2008, filed with the Virginia Department of Agriculture and Consumer Services, shows that the animal rights group killed 95 percent of the dogs and cats in its care last year. During all of 2008, PETA found adoptive homes for just seven pets.

Just seven animals -- out of the 2,216 it took in. PETA just broke its own record.

Why would an animal rights group secretly kill animals at its headquarters? PETA’s continued silence on the matter makes it hard to say for sure. But from a cost-saving standpoint, PETA’s hypocrisy isn’t difficult to understand: Killing adoptable cats and dogs – and storing the bodies in a walk-in freezer until they can be cremated – requires far less money and effort than caring for the pets until they are adopted.

PETA has a $32 million annual budget. But instead of investing in the lives of the thousands of flesh and blood creatures in its care, the group spends millions on media campaigns telling Americans that eating meat, drinking milk, fishing, hunting, wearing leather shoes, and benefiting from medical research performed on lab rats are all “unethical.”

The bottom line: PETA’s leaders care more about cutting into their advertising budget than finding homes for the nearly six pets they kill on average, every single day.

The Virginia Beach SPCA, just down the road from PETA’s Norfolk headquarters, manages to adopt out the vast majority of the animals in its care. And it does it on a shoestring budget.

Years of public outrage has not been enough to convince PETA to eliminate its pet eradication program.

Now the death toll of animals in PETA’s care has reached 21,339, including more than 2,000 pets last year. That’s not an animal charity. It’s a slaughterhouse

Here Piggy pig pig!

2009-05-01T13:30:00.000-07:00

NO ITS OKAY HES STILL FLU FREE.

Okay so who else here is sick of the whole swine flu shit?
Me too.
All it is ,is another fucking form of the flu with a couple added simptoms such as vomiting and the runs...
Big Fucking Deal!
The media calls it a pandemic ( for u retarted ppl that means GLOBAL epademic) but here the thing
Everyone gets it, and now just b/c we give it some cool name our pork industry is in ruins
(just what we need in times like this) and on top of that the nation is in panic.
CONGRATS MEDIA UVE DONE IT AGAIN!
For fucks sake people buy a bottle of NyQuil and a box of Kleenex and get the hell over it.

A spring in her step.

2009-04-29T09:07:00.000-07:00

A BRAVE girl who tragically lost all her limbs to meningitis is learning to walk again.

Five-year-old Ellie May Challis has become the youngest person in the world to be fitted with special carbon framed limbs.

The youngster touched the hearts of people across the county as she defied the odds to survive the killer bug which she contracted in 2005.

Sadly Ellie May had to have all her limbs amputated eight weeks later.

So her parents, who moved to Little Clacton from Rainham at Christmas, contacted world renowned prosthetic limb centre Dorset Orthopaedic to see if they could help and the firm made the specially designed new legs.

She was fitted with them three weeks ago – making her the youngest person in the world to have the £10,000 a pair special limbs.

Paul Challis, 45, said: “Ellie can walk twice as fast on these new legs. She is so full of determination.”

The company’s managing director Bob Watts said: “We had to make them especially for Ellie as they had never been made this small before. We were worried that she wouldn’t be able to balance properly on them, but she has made amazing progress.

“Within seconds of having them on, she was off. It will change her life.”

Readers have helped support Ellie May by running various fundraisers for the family. In south Essex more than £50,000 was raised.

Fundraisers have included Benfleet Rotary Club, who raised more than £1,500 by holding a race night and auctioning a Real Madrid shirt signed by David Beckham.

Lewis Joiner from the Rotary Club said: “Her story has touched all of our hearts.”

And u will Know us by the trail of dead bodies...

2009-04-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

BAGHDAD — A previously undisclosed Iraqi government tally obtained by The Associated Press shows that at least 87,215 Iraqis have been killed in violence since 2005.

An in-depth AP review shows the total for the entire war exceeds 110,000 Iraqis. That figure is based on the government tally and counts of casualties from earlier years from hospital sources and media reports.

A government official shared the Iraqi death tally on condition of anonymity, providing the most authoritative accounting to date of the war’s toll.

It still excludes thousands of people who are missing and civilians who were buried in the chaos of war without official notice.

Meanwhile, the numbers continued to rise Thursday, as two separate suicide attacks killed at least 54 people.

Suicide Girls

2009-04-29T08:50:00.000-07:00

YEA. IM GOIN TO HELL.

Wow...fuck u SOUTH AFRICA.

2009-04-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

Lesbians in South Africa are being subjected to ‘corrective rape’ by men who think it will ‘cure’ them of their sexual orientation, according to human rights group ActionAid.
Rape is fast becoming the most widespread hate crime targeted against gay women across South Africa.
One lesbian and gay support group says it is dealing with 10 new cases of lesbian women being targeted for ‘corrective’ rape every week in Cape Town alone.
The report by the international NGO ActionAid, backed by the South African Human Rights Commission, said the horrific crimes against lesbians were going unrecognised by the state and unpunished by the legal system.
There are an estimated 500,000 rapes in South Africa every year. For every 25 men accused of rape in the country, 24 walk free.
As part of the widespread oppression of women, the country is now witnessing a backlash of crimes targeted specifically at lesbian women, who are perceived as representing a direct threat to a male-dominated society.
‘Corrective rape’ survivors interviewed by ActionAid said their attackers told them the rape would “teach them a lesson” and “show them how to be real women”.

Hey Angelina Heres ANOTHER one!

2009-04-29T08:28:00.000-07:00

THE poverty-stricken father of Slum dog Millionaire child star Rubina Ali plans to become a millionaire himself-by SELLING his nine-year-old daughter.

In a bid to escape India’s real-life slums, Rafiq Qureshi put angel-faced darling of the Oscars Rubina up for adoption, demanding millions of rupees worth £200,000.

As he offered the shocking deal to the News of the World’s undercover fake sheik this week, Rafiq declared:“I have to consider what’s best for me, my family and Rubina’s future.”

Ah theres nothing better than the love of a parent....

PETA in its reality.....

2009-04-28T10:26:00.000-07:00

7 Things You Didn't Know About PETA

1) PETA president and co-founder Ingrid Newkirk has described her group's overall goal as "total animal liberation." This means no meat, no milk, no zoos, no circuses, no wool, no leather, no hunting, no fishing, and no pets (not even seeing-eye dogs). PETA is also against all medical research that requires the use of animals.

2) Despite its constant moralizing about the "unethical" treatment of animals by restaurant owners, grocers, farmers, scientists, anglers, and countless other Americans, PETA has killed over 14,400 dogs and cats at its Norfolk, Virginia headquarters. During 2005, PETA put to death over 90 percent of the animals it collected from members of the public.

3) PETA has given tens of thousands of dollars to convicted arsonists and other violent criminals. This includes a 2001 donation of $1,500 to the North American Earth Liberation Front (ELF), an FBI-certified "domestic terrorist" group responsible for dozens of firebombs and death threats. During the 1990s, PETA paid $70,200 to an Animal Liberation Front (ALF) activist convicted of burning down a Michigan State University research laboratory. In his sentencing recommendation, a federal prosecutor implicated PETA president Ingrid Newkirk in that crime. And PETA vegetarian campaign coordinator Bruce Friedrich told an animal rights convention in 2001 that "blowing stuff up and smashing windows" is "a great way to bring about animal liberation."

4) PETA activists regularly target children as young as six years old with anti-meat and anti-milk propaganda, often waiting outside their schools to intercept them as they walk to and from class-without notifying parents. One piece of kid-targeted PETA literature tells small children: "Your Mommy Kills Animals!" PETA brags that its messages reach over 2 million children every year, including thousands reached by e-mail without the permission of their parents. One PETA vice president told the Fox News Channel's audience: "Our campaigns are always geared towards children, and they always will be."

5) PETA has used a related organization, the PETA Foundation, to fund the misnamed Physicians Committee for Responsible Medicine (PCRM), a deceptive animal rights group that promotes itself as an unbiased source of medical and nutritional information. PCRM's president also serves as president of the PETA Foundation.

6) PETA runs campaigns seemingly calculated to offend religious believers. One entire PETA website is devoted to the claim-despite ample evidence to the contrary-that Jesus Christ was a vegetarian. PETA holds protests at houses of worship, even suing one church that tried to protect its members from Sunday-morning harassment. Its billboards taunt Christians with the message that hogs "died for their sins." PETA insists, contrary to centuries of rabbinical teaching, that the Jewish ritual of kosher slaughter shouldn't be allowed. And its infamous "Holocaust on Your Plate" campaign crassly compares the Jewish victims of Nazi genocide with farm animals.

7) PETA has repeatedly attacked research foundations like the March of Dimes, the Pediatric AIDS Foundation, and the American Cancer Society, because they support animal-based research that might uncover cures for birth defects and life-threatening diseases. PETA president Ingrid Newkirk has said that "even if animal research resulted in a cure for AIDS, we would be against it."

Change of mine.

2009-04-28T10:23:00.000-07:00

She confuses me and fascinates me.
This cant be good for my mental health.

.....Eh sanity is boring anyways.

In the eye of the beholding.

2009-04-28T10:02:00.000-07:00

Hmmmmmmm....
Thinking about her again....
Not hard to do tho considering she is the first thought in the morn and b4
i lay my head down at night.
She doesn't like the rain today but its alright. She loves the sunshine. Sunburns and such.
I'm feeling very....whored today, but not in a bad way.
I just feel like everyone has a piece of me.
Feeling
In
Love.

No. This is a real child who really did starve to death!

2009-04-24T08:57:00.000-07:00

SINCE WHEN IS THIS OKAY!?
GET UP AND DO SOMETHING!

Just a side note
The child in this picture is now dead. His name was unknown, but he died 4 days after this picture was taken......This is unacceptable.

A simple meal like rice which costs no more than a dollar for 4 pounds, could have saved this childs life.

Its Not Hard Ladies and Gentelman Give it a shot!

2009-04-24T08:55:00.001-07:00

Fred Phelps (Americas REAL problem)

2009-04-24T08:52:00.000-07:00

SPEAKS FOR ITSELF PEOPLE!!!!!!!

America and Humanity has a new enemy and its not Iraq!
Its this man!

(poem) On a Wednesday

2009-04-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

I am speaking in tongues today....
thirty-five past 8 in the morn...
made up of 11 and 3 today
I am a believer of the whore.

Txting=the plauge of relationships

2009-04-23T10:02:00.000-07:00

Wow
so the everyday txting convo. turns into a bloody fight over what u say and what it meant.....how cynical.
Ruiner of the beautiful bonds i call it.
............maybe I should be more specific tho........

Hmmmm a new latitude?

2009-04-22T10:37:00.000-07:00

Wow. The world is new for me lately. All made up of 11 and 3 (which makes sense if u think just a little) She is so......unconventional and so.....my muse of late.
Its so strange how this life spins me in a thousand different directions.

The King of Lies

2009-04-22T10:24:00.000-07:00

Yes, friends, the mongrels I am referring to are the excrement-eating cowards from Westboro Baptist Church in Topeka, Kansas. These (alleged) children of God are notorious for picketing the funerals of U.S. soldiers who have died in Iraq and Afghanistan as a way of protesting our government, which they believe is much too tolerant of homosexuality. These deranged maniacs carry signs and placards reading, “Thank God for Dead Soldiers” and “Thank God for IEDs [improvised explosive devices]” and “God Hates America”, while shouting curses and hurling insults at grieving parents. They also operate a detestable website that needs no explanation (www.godhatesfags.com). The Westboro Baptist Church (in Topeka, Kansas) is run by a diseased scarecrow-looking brute named Fred Phelps who believes that the soldiers deaths are God’s prompt punishment for the collective sins of our nation.

Some of you might read this with disgust, but argue that they have a right to free speech. You would be correct. However, it seems only fair that I have the opportunity to exercise my right to take an aluminum bat to the kneecaps of these hate-mongers while singing “Amazing Grace.

Organized religion has a terrifying history of hate and violence that has fueled its empire for centuries. From the missions, to the Inquisition, to the Crusades, to institutionalized slavery and genocide, these fanatics have fed on death and destruction, all in the name of the Prince of Peace. Indeed, countless victims have perished at the hands of these delusional rats whose only nourishment is power and greed. They use fear to keep the passive mammals in line and destroy anyone or anything that might jeopardize their supremacy. They have transformed something beautifully unifying into an ugly, savage weapon of conformity

And the only thing worse than these villainous protozoans and their diabolical stupidity is the silence of the masses who see it all and do nothing. It’s enough to make me violently ill. Look, I am not so simple minded as to lump all religious people together into one massive amoebic creature with multiple mouths and endless eyes sliming the universe with its excreta. I am aware of the subtleties and differences on the religious totem. I expect the fanatics to be noisy and the moderates to be, well, moderate. What I do not expect or accept is how they pick and choose their battles. I have seen the most lukewarm Christian moderates explode with passionate zealotry over the abortion debate. I’ve seen them walking the picket line with the extremists, shouting and singing gospel hymns, and scaring the devil out of terrified patients entering and exiting the clinics. But where are they when lowlife, scumbag bigots and perverts pretend to be ministers, ordained by a savage god, and vomit a sermon of hate from a pulpit of false righteousness? Where’s the outrage from the good, Jesus loving Christians when Phelps and his inbred miscreant progeny protest military funerals? Oh, the hypocrisy! Oh, the shame! I often wonder how the sheep can sleep at night knowing their silence empowers these traitors. Remember, it was Martin Luther King Jr. who said, “In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.

Better Lighting

2009-04-22T10:14:00.000-07:00

Busy
All
Day

Moving the mind furniture.

........Better Lighting