I Crave Deliverance.....

What can I say really?
Truth is I don't even know.
I am so done with everything around me and everyone around me.
I am drifting away from them all so fast that i cant hang on to them.
so this is my goodbye.
This is my way of saying you win world.
Ill go back to what i was before and ill learn to love it because it is whats written in my stars.
I will be the whore he made me again.
I will be his object.
That is my life and there is no one who can stop it.
Not even me.
Hell I guess anything is better than being alone.
I hate their sex. I hate them so much, but i cannot escape them. Ever.
Disgusting as they are.
I, to them am nothing more than a sexual encounter that they can talk about with their drone like friends while they attempt to grow their penis with each "kiss and tell story" they share.
Pigs. worthless fucking pigs.
But then again I cant have what I want....so ill take what wants me.

Ill make sure they never know how broken i am right now.
Especially her.